knussyknuss13

Thu, 13 Jan 2005 07:20:02 GMT

ok...dangit...this is the second time i'm gonna try and write this entry...the first time...i was alllmost done, and i accidently hit the switch on the power strip and shut off the computer...thus losing evvvverything i had written...grrr. ok..well...tonight i went out with the parents to Johnny's Italian Steakhouse...YUUUUM!!! anyways, we got hammered by some thunderstorms today...I LOVE STORMS!! (even if they're in January) but why do i bring this up you ask??? well..it plays an important role. see..i had offered to drop my parents off at the door, so they wouldn't ahve to walk through the rain...nice of me right??? wrong... so i'm walking up to the doors..and i see my mom trying to wave me to hurry up and get inside. so i get in the doors...and who do i see but rory and his parents. so i'm like..oooh! its your birthday today isn't. so i give him a huge...and notice that his mom is like...giving me this look of death/i have no idea who this girl is...haha so my dad is like..."uhhh i'm still out of the picture here"... and i finally figure out that the parents have no idea who the other is. finally..we make the introductions and they're all like...oooh yea! (duh, they're neighbors, and live 2 houses down...morons.) haha, so then, my mom asks about their dog, b/c Mr. Poynter (rory's dad) had come to our house about a year ago asking if we had seen their dog b/c it ran away. so my mom asks if they found it...and rory's dad goes on to tell how it ran into one of their other neighbors dogs..and they got into a huge fight and their dog was killed, and they found it there dead a few days later. i'm just like...omg...this is now uber frickin awkward! i mean...we are all so tense that i would have welcomed open gunfire to de-escalte the situation. so finally the hostess shows up and we get seated...and my parents are just like...laughing their asses off b/c of how f'ed up that convo was...and then i informed them that i was gonna park in this reallly close spot..but it said it was reserved for senior citizens, so as i'm walking into Johnny's i pass the guy who ended up parking in that spot...and i'm about to tell my parents about it when in walks the guy who parked there...who happened to be Mr. Poynter, so i basically looked like an idiot by stopping mid-sentance on that one b4 i called his parents seniors! i've since then decided that the run-in was just destined by God himself to fail miserably, and we should all just laugh about how many ways there are to put your foot in your mouth in 5 min. anyways..dinner was grrrrrreat, and after that we did some shopping. i got this HUGE bag/luggage thingy...we weighed it after i got done, at it was over 50 pounds...yes...i am the master, not to mention all the other stuff i have, another nike bag with clothes, my book bag with my laptop and chem stuff, a bag of coffee, tea and oatmeal from my aunt, a bag with my ski boots in it, the box with my new printer, my ski poles and my huge ace skis. i'm def. takin the dang elevator...there's nooooo way i'm treking up 3 flights of stair with allll that stuff!! i mean...i didnt think i had that much stuff! so...here's the game plan for tomorrow (speaking of games....THE ILLINI WIN AGAIN!) ok, gonna drive down, haul all my S*%$ upstairs, go to TIS/ wherever i can get all my books, hit up wal-mart b/c they have my pics from augusut oooh!! and BTW...the printer has a little space to plug in digital camera memory cards... AND DAMN...IT PRINTS GOOD PICS!! i'm not paying any more stores that being with "wal" to develop my pictures...biotches! after that...maybe i'll stop by the lab..i havent been to work in months..i'm thinkin i should get on that one. i might also apply at a few other places...b/c i mean...the lab looks good on app's...but i want another job that i can have fun at, so we'll see. anyways...thats all for now...and for all you ILLINOIS people...I'LL SEE YA SOON BABY!!! and for all the newman people...GET READY FOR THE UBER FUN UBER INTOXICATING SKI TRIP NEXT WEEKEND!! oh...and for all you creeps trying to get out of driving to wisconsin..i drove last year..i'm last on the list this year you lazy ass bums. ok...as for now, i'm out, and to everyone who i won't be seeing at Illinois, I'LL MISS YOOOOOOU!!! :)

Tue, 11 Jan 2005 07:34:12 GMT

well..just got back from dinner with beth, B and los. we had a good time, chatted about school and how this semester is gonna suck! i mean, part of me wants to go back...but part of me also wanted to stay here, even though its boring, i would have liked to have more time here with some people that i didnt get to see, or didnt see very much of. i had all these plans for break, and didnt do any of them. i guess i'm going to try to read for organic chem 2, i had hoped to get a bit ahead, judging my my organic 1 grade i'll need it! i was going to go back to champaign for a few days to work in the lab, but my plans for that kinda fell through, my recent single'ness left me without a place to say, but i might go back to newman early and work a few days b4 school starts, but i'm still making up my mind on that one. the past few days have been pretty action packed for me...and not necessarily in a good way, between my aunts and uncles getting divorced, being yelled at, and, well, trusting people, its been one hell of a week. i think that i'm really gonna throw myself into my work this semester, i wasn't too happy with some of the grades i got, so it's time to really buckle down and get with it. i just want to lose myself in school for awhile, and have time to think about where everything is going. the one good thing about going back to school is that, hopefully, i'll be able to sit down and talk to some people. i haven't really been able to get some stuff off my chest, i used to tell alex everything, but now i have to find some new ppl to confide in, which is hard for me, seeing that i tend to be somewhat solitary anyhow, but we'll see. if all else fails, maybe i'll throw myself into school, and suddenly wake up one day with an awesome career as a vet, bringing in TONS of money, and an awesome husband who just happens to be the man of my dreams!!! i'll just be oblivous during the whole.."building the relationship" phase, cause i stink at that anyhow! well...i've done my complaining for the day, i think its time to watch some alias, read some LOTR and go to bed!

Sat, 08 Jan 2005 20:34:36 GMT

hello everyone! hope you all are having a great break! i had a good night last night...went out with Halle, and the 2 megans. we stopped by one of megans friends...who happened to have his own personal super stocked bar (and used to work at one too), very attractive, but a bit too short sadly. i've come to realize that my height can be a major problem, b/c i've got this thing for taller guys, and i just cant help but over look the short ones :/ then we went back to megans...and some of Halle's friends from the mall came over, along with Jeff!!!! i love talking to people from PND that i dont see all the time, its entertaining to get all the latest news. both megans got pretty sloshed, but Halle and i were fine..so we drove back to stay at her house. neither one of us was really in the mood to party anymore...i mean, we def. were earlier!! but stupid people have to ruin our fun. we were going to try and go skiing on sunday, but beth has to go out with her family...so we'll have to take a rain check on that one, but i think some people are going to come hang out here tonight, for some chill time, maybe play some poker :) other than that things are going ok, we still have mad family drama between the aunts and uncles, its starting to get just plain ridiculous, and i've got some drama of my own to deal with...i'm tired of putting in all the effort, so i'm done. putting my foot down dangit!!! :) anyways, thats all for now!

Fri, 07 Jan 2005 06:50:14 GMT

just got done chattin with Halle, b/c i'm not having a good night :( anyways, i found some pretty thought provoking quotes online:

Sometimes people put up walls, not to keep others out, but to see who cares enough to break them down.

I wanna be remembered as the girl who always smiled.
the one who could always brighten your day.
even if she couldnt brighten her own
~sweet thing

Never give up on something that you can't go a day without thinking about.

Love is when your puppy licks your face even after you left him alone all day.

Being deeply loved by someone gives you strength,
While loving someone deeply gives you courage.
~ Lao Tzu

anyways...i thought these were pretty neat...but on the bright side....WHO WANTS TO GO SKIING THIS WEEKEND!!!! :) beth and i are gonna look for some hot snowboarders again! but seriously, if you think you can live up to the challenge, lemme know!

Thu, 06 Jan 2005 21:36:08 GMT

hola everyone! i'm bored again so it's time to sit down and write about what i've been up too. yesterday was a bit crazy, i woke up and the weather was kinda bad, which immediatly puts me in a bad mood because i couldn't go running outside :( i made the best of it and put in a movie and exercised down stairs. i gave elena a call, they were at carls doing a whole lotta nadda, so i took a shower and went in to visit. B was already there, and beth got there right after me. we chilled for awhile, and had major snake time b/c Mrs. Rado is awesome and buys m&m's and gummy worms. stu, piz, palko and elana came over and we watched some crazy ass show on spike that does voice overs for some old chinese game show...which, as stupid as it sounds, was kinda funny. we finally decided to go bowling, beth and i kicked ass! and the ghetto fab ppl next to us decided to tell me and elena how much they liked our asses....shhhhhhiiiiiit!!! :) anyways, went to steak and shake to eat, reflected on how...damn, we used to go there all the time to eat in high school. watched bad boys 2...sooo many great lines and decided to spend the night at carls b/c i didn't feel like driving home in the icy/snowy mess. we finally all got to bed at about 4...celestes cat decided to go nuts with the jar of m&m's a few hours later, got woken up again at 9 b/c the mother called, and then rory called at 9:30...weird...no idea what he wanted, i was supposed to call him when i got back for break...ooops...i mean, he looks damn good in his uniform, and is fun to hang out with, but he's a bit too crazy for me. finally drove home, and found a list of things waiting for me to do. now i'm trying to decide if i just want to trim my hair, or cut a bunch off, i'm thinking maybe shoulder length??? i know ppl love it long, esp. when i straighten it, but its such a pain in the ass. but on the other hand, i do want to look good! ;) anyways...leave comments for me on what i should do!!!

Wed, 05 Jan 2005 08:13:30 GMT

wow. i can't believe this thing is still here. you'd think after months of no use, live journal would give up on me! i mean, the last time i wrote in this thing...i talked about bob....wow...those of you who know me well know how looooong ago that was! anyways, its winter break for all of us U of I kids, and i'm getting a bit bored, so i decided to turn back to this stupid journal to occupy my time. so lets see, what can i tell you about me today. well, i just got back from los's house...los being carl for those of you who don't know...duh. we had a small gathering of Newman ppl, being beth, carl, brandon and i, and ricky and elena even decided to come down from chicago! although, it took them about an hour and a half longer than it should have, since they blew by their exit off of 55, and ended up past bloomington somewhere :/ it was a good night though, we took the chicago'ens to avanti's (yuuuum) and then went to our ghetto ass old mall. i swear, the places gets more and more shady everytime i come back. we went back to carls, and me, ricky, and Mr. Rado. had some pretty deep conversations about careers, and to think we're getting old enough to start worrying about those is scary! beth stopped by and we watched collateral... and i think i'm getting old, because that was waaaaaay toooo much suspense for me that late in the evening. oh well. i've had sort of a weird week. some good things, some bad. the good thing is brandon, megan, beth and i got into a movie at the rave for free, and i get to see my roomie (elena) and ricky. bad news is that alex and i are officially over. for those of you who dont know, i've been dating alex for around 8 months. before we started dating, he was my best friend, but we recently came to the conclusion that we aren't as good of friends as we used to be, which is not good. i have a feeling that its mostly my fault. i mean, for some reason, i cant seem to keep a guy around. in this case, i didnt have time, in other cases, it just got boring, and in one, i just didn't give him the chance. i'm not really sure why i always end up losing, it just plain stinks. i mean, i know that i dont easily trust anyone, but those of us who have been hurt badly before rarly do, and those of you who remember my first "real" bf will know that my life sucked after that. most of the time we get over it, as long as someone shows us that they really aren't out to hurt us, but even those guys i seem to go through. there has to be some guy out there that fits, i mean, i either want too much time, or can't give enough. most of the time, i can't give enough, i mean, i can be a pretty solitary person, and i like time to myself. this is why i come home just about every weekend. i get cramped in the city, i mean, dont get me wrong, being 20 minutes from everything is great, but the farm has the space. there's nothing confining out here, i can grab the mp3 player, some shoes, and just go run until...well...until i've left all of my problems behind me. thats whats so great about running, and i'm not talking about treadmills or any other machines, i'm talking about running outside, with non-processed air. i love the feeling that you can run away from everything, even though at some point, i do have to come back, but usually, the time alone is enough to clear my mind, and make things alittle easier. anyways, i shoudl probably go to bed, i need to get up and help around here tomorrow, and i suppose i should go help radolos with his guests tomorrow ahhhhhh :) we're thinking agatucci's for tomorrow, if you wanna join, drop us a line!

it's been awhile

Wed, 04 Feb 2004 00:49:54 GMT

ok..so it's been a little more than awhile...oh well. i've been busy and haven't had time to write in this thing. i'm back at newman, chillin, and have dropped back from 17 hours to 15, so now i feel like a complete bum compared to my 18 last semester. anyways...it's nice to be back, bob and i had a nice chat the other day, sometimes i like just sitting at home and having a good convo or debate with my boyfriend. anyways...jim has just im'ed and wants to watch some of Dune with me..so i'm out for now!!!
P.S. thanks to my bf for finally putting me on his list of friends...but i'm such a good girlfriend b/c i just think that's funny, and not annoying!!!

rough couple of days

Fri, 16 Jan 2004 05:45:30 GMT

well..i can honestly say that my last 48 hours have not been as bad as matts, but i've had a stressful time. between people not believing me and guys just saying stuff that makes a girl say.."ouch, that hurts", life sucks. sometimes i don't think they realize that when they say some things...it hurts, but they don't even realize what they've said. then the girl has to fess up to being soft and admit that something messed with her head, and a girls mind is quite complex, which tends to be a roadblock for most men. if only they were as smart as us....ah..well..what can you expect. but every once in awhile, they say something so nice...that it makes you cry, and those are the best times of all.

yeaaahh!!!

Thu, 15 Jan 2004 04:44:20 GMT

I'M LE EXCITED!!!! went out to eat with the parents today at ned kelly's..that was nice, had some good conversation. afterwards we stopped in at Best Buy. originally i wanted to go there to get another memory card for my mp3 player. we left with the card and my very own DIGITAL CAMERA!!!!! woooooooo!!! imagine the things i can catch on film with this thing..and it records video too!!! oh man, beth, we are in trouble, but don't worry jim, i'll remember to take plenty of pictures with you in them! anyhow...i have a dentist appointment tomorrow, and my hygenist this time is the one that everybody fears... my mom told me to OD on pain killers b4 i go... hmmm...thats not good. went into visit PND the other day... tuesday to be precise. that was oodles of fun. i got to visit with mike and bring him lunch, saw stu as well, he's as crazy as ever. had a nice long chat with eric (the ex, but on good terms) and told him (while he was giving me a nice big hug) that he better find my prom pictures. he told me that they are "temporarily mia"...riiiight. then i had a nice chat with miss clark. i really can't figure out whether she loves me or hates me...hmm. lestel and i also chatted for quite some time with my fav. teacher of all time MR. CUMMINGS!!!! he is so awesome, and he knows everything!!!! even after i've been at college he still knows stuff that's happnened..craziness i tell you. my roomie beth gets back into the states tonight!! yeahhh!!!! wooooow!!! we will have to catch up on some of the craziness thats been going on! well..i'm off to try out my new camera..it has all these buttons...i'm seriously lost!!

HELP

Sun, 11 Jan 2004 19:29:07 GMT

hey..newman ladies.... i would luv to know and or see a picture of the dresses that you guys are wearing if you have them yet. i'm not quite sure how formal my dress needs to be..thanx!!!

after a weekend of having fun

Sun, 11 Jan 2004 07:24:08 GMT

well, wow, this weekend was pretty awesome!! i went to the 3 doors down concert with my best friend beth, and i ended up running into my 21 year old cousin there!! what are the odds??? afterwards, instead of driving back to my house, we spent the night at her apartment... that was tooooo much fun!!!! jodi..we are awesome, and we are def. going skiing up there b4 i go back to u of i!! anyways..tonight was fun. i went to the PND vs. Limestone game, we sux. met my girls there and saw mike and matt..i MISS YOU GUYS!! got to see all my friends from high school, including pizer and my republican pal david...not sure about the hair...anyways. afterwards we all went to lisa's...HOLY SHIT MAD PARTY!!! i mean wow...everybody showed up for that one, mostly pnd and richwoods people. i told a guy named shane that ryan hates me, but i deserve it, it just makes me sad. saw everybody there, including eric, chris, jeremy, ryan brady, etc. and some pnd seniors. it was an all in all good time with little drama, so mike would be proud. there was some drama with lauren and brady, but i totally understand girl, and i luv you!!! i was supposed to go with brady and his friends back out to weavers, but i decided to call it a night. talking to luke right now about some things that i need to get straight with those guys...i didnt know that thought some certain things about me that they shouldnt... i hope everything turns out ok. i hate feeling like a brat, but somehow i always do.

i'm back

Thu, 08 Jan 2004 02:09:07 GMT

well i'm home. i had a great time in chicago, thanx to everyone who
showed me the town!!! yesterday we went to the museum and after
jim, tom, gibbs, colin and i went to eat at some mexican place. tom
dropped colin and i off at the el, but on the way there, we had some
awesome quotes. tom told colin and i to get ready to get dropped
off, but when i asked where, he said "by the tall building up there"
well tom...uhhh "tall building??? we're in chicago, do you know how
many tall buildings there are??" after that, as jim and i were
fake snuggling in the back (just kidding honey) he told me that..its
poppin..while the whole car is in disgust, jim pointed out that the
name of a store that we were driving by was named "its poppin"...
very nice car ride. anyways...colin and i talked the whole 45 min.
back to park ridge.. fun time... he's a really nice guy, and he can
make his own scarf. anyways... i feel like doing nothing, so i'm
off!!

at cathy's in chi-town

Tue, 06 Jan 2004 00:31:57 GMT

well..its me here up in chicago at park ridge at cathy's house!!! last night i spent the night at the pernini's.. everybody came over, including the peoria boys and we went sledding until 2 in the morning. after that we and some really awful sandwiches from dunken donuts and watched a movie at the pernini's until 4 in the morning. i am now back at cathy's house. the guys went back to p-town today, but we girls went out to olive garden and stuffed ourselves!!! tomorrow we are all (me, cathy, danielle, michelle, mc, tom, jim, and maybe joe, colin and stephanie) planning on going to the museum of science and technology and the aquarium ( i LUV te aquarium)!!! well, its time for me to go have fun with the huge fam... THERE ARE SOOO MANY!!! and they are soo awesome, and i think they actually like me!!!! hope everyone is having this awesome of a break..bye!!!

it's been awhile

Sat, 03 Jan 2004 04:32:48 GMT

well guys..its been awhile (for my standards) since i wrote in this thing. things are going well. bob and i went to jim's new year's eve party out in the boons of Indiana..i felt right at home. it was a great time, one of the best new year's ever!!! to those of you who decided to pass it up... not to mention any names... LUKE AND CARRIE... you missed a great time. i just hope that jim doesnt get into any trouble for our antics : \ anyways...it was nice to just have fun and relax for 2 days without my parents breathing down my neck, thanx jim!!!

i'm afraid that i won't be home for long though, i am planning on leaving for chicago with my best friend from home on the 4th. beth is rather "direction/map/place/going anywhere other than peoria and metamora impared". but i'm sure that mrs. marchal will figure everything out, and we'll have no trouble getting up there (fingers crossed). after that i think i will be invading cathy's house until the 7th. i told her last night that i want to go to Shedd Aquarium, which i know sounds like i'm about 8 years old, but i really like it. i guess that i never grew out of that "i want to be a marine biologist" phase.. you know..the one you have when your 5. anyways, i hope to get some shopping done while i'm up there as well, including fueling my sports bra fetish (thats right..i have a sports bra fetish for those of you who dont know me that well) at nike town..b/c that place is awesome, expensive, but awesome. maybe i'll find a dress for newman's formal too, i guess i should probably look for that, i dunno when it is or if i'm going to have a date ; ) but i'll still look, since i know better than waiting until the last minute, and if i dont do it now, thats what will happen.

i'm toooo excited to meet all of cathy's family!!!! i mean... who wouldnt be excited to meet a family that represents cheaper by the dozen?? being an only child, all these children should be a new experience for me...BRING IT ON!!! i miss all my chicago friends more than i thought i would, so i hope to see them while i'm up there!!! (that means that my cell better be ringing with calls from you guys while i'm up there!!)

well... i have decided to have a little survey in my journal, not that anyone really reads it, but stay with me here. why are girls attracted to guys when they are playing with little kids??? katie and i had a discussion about it, but bob doesn't seem to agree with our conclusion, and for the sake of being fare, i won't mention what our opinion is. so if you're online and want to im, e-mail, or leave one of those few and far between comments about this issue...DO IT!!

wooo!!

Tue, 30 Dec 2003 08:38:55 GMT

tonight was a fun and crazy night with katie loberg. i started out at the firehouse visiting rory for a few minutes. he seemed surprised that i had a boyfriend...hmm...he needs to get out from under his rock :). after that i met katie at target and then we traveled to steak and shake to get something to drink. we saw bob and his friends..and i felt like a major stalker..oh well. katie then crazily drove to willow, and i saw my life flash b4 my eyes multiple times. we went to go see Return of the King, and that was my third time viewing it. yes, i know, i need a life. on a lighter note...i saw Tyler Akeson at the movie theater!!!!! we both looked at each other, then did a double take, and were like...AAAHHHH!!! HEY!!!! after the hugging and the hey how are ya's we had a nice little chat. she informed me that my prom pictures have been found!! yes!! (for those of you who dont know...i dated tylers younger brother eric my senior year, we ended on good terms, if you are wondering why i would be excited to see his sister). anyways...i will finally be getting my pictures, but she told me that eric has been working on writing some insane amount of college essays that are all due around the 2nd. she said he might want to go to school in L.A. (he's wants to golf in college, he's pretty good too) or a film school. it sounds like he still wants to make movies, but Tyler said that she thinks he doesnt really know what he wants. but then again, do most of us know what we want to be yet??? i dont. anyways, it was awesome to see her, and it made me realize that i do miss hanging out with all the Akesons (scottie and todd are eric and tylers younger brothers). beth used to think that todd was cute, and everyone thought scottie and i were brother and sister, which was a bit weird. scotties was probably one of the most awesome kids i have ever met, with the exception of patrick wille. anyways..that made my night!!! hope everyone is having a great break!!!

tired

Mon, 29 Dec 2003 06:02:51 GMT

for some reason i'm really tired today, so this will be short..i promise. nothing really happened today, i continued my new ritual of running with recha everyday. got a call from rory, but the highlight of my day was a call from CATHY!!! her and msizzle were hanging out...so i got to speak with them. they said that b-randon and pizer are going up to chicago sometime, so i want to see if i might be able to catch a ride with them. i miss everyone from up there too much :( talked to jim today as well, planning the new years thing. battled with bob about whether or not he's going, if he didnt think i was annoying b4 i'm sure he does now, but its not my fault, its a girls prerogitive to want to know whats going on, and jim wanted to know too. matt mitchell left me a nice comment on my last entry..yes...i luv comments!!! no one ever leaves comments..grr. and yes..THE PACKERS ARE AWESOME!!! (matt and i happen to be big fans). well...im off to bed, night.

well...Christmas is over

Sun, 28 Dec 2003 07:26:18 GMT

Christmas is finally over, but it was pretty awesome for me. bob and i exchanged gifts last night...well..i guess it would be 2 nights ago now, basically it was the day after christmas for those of you who are easily confused. he did an awesome job!!! he got me the cutest book that my mother wants to steal from me...(grrrr), some reallllly good smelling lotion that i actually really needed b/c mine ran out the other day, and a calander with none other than my obsession on it...(unicorns for those of you who are out of the loop). oh yea...and there was a Lord of the Rings bookmark in there too... yes! i couldn't have asked for a better Christmas. today...well..yesterday..whatever, i went out with beth. i think she got mad at me b4 she left..just a hunch. this whole drama thing with her and mike (her ex that she still wants to be friends with, who happens to be bobs brother, very involved) has us at a bit of an impass. we disagree on how things should work after a relationship has ended, and i think i accidently offened her tonight. if i did, i didn't mean to and i'm sorry. the problem is, we are both very stubborn and wont give in to the others point of view, well..thats how it has always been. i talked to bob while she was getting ready to leave, but i think he was tired and wasn't in the mood for company, so i made the long journey back to the farm out in good ole Trivoli. mike called after i got back and we had a nice long chat. we hadn't really talked for quite awhile, so it was nice to catch up. it always seems like when mike and i get together we always have something to debate about, well...we really dont debate, b/c its not like we get angry about stuff, we just listen to each other points of view. for some reason i dont try and force my views on him, i dont know how he gets out of that..better take it while you can. actually, i'm trying to become less aggressive. i dont know why, but i am starting to realize that i hold my own opinions to highly and that there are other people to think of. well..maybe i do know why i am noticing stuff about myself, i think i see people doing stuff that annoys me, but i am like..."hold on, could i be doing those very same annoying things and not realize it?" "NOOOO, b/c then i would be a hypocrit!!! AAAAHHHH!!" so maybe i can't always have what i want when i want it, and i won't always be right(i hope you wille boys are reading this and are probably falling off your chair b/c a woman is admitting that she is not always right). U of I has made me realize that i cant be the best at everything, and i'm probably not really the best at anything in general, but thats ok. hopefully by the end of this year i will stop acting like i know everything!! wow..what a transformation that will be! my parents say that i've changed alot, i guess i dont really know... i wish i could take an objective view of myself everyonce in awhile and see myself through someone else, but...too bad. one thing that won't change....liberals like steve are retarded and democrats don't know what they are doing!!! yes!!! ok..well, maybe i need to be a bit more accepting of people too. well, its raining outside, i love rain...the most in the summer, weather through storms on the dock is nice when you need to think (even though i think ryan and i still wish we could trade views occassionally). hopefully i will fall asleep to the lull of rain drops that can only be heard out here in the corn fields. night.

i had to put this in here

Fri, 26 Dec 2003 06:08:03 GMT

jim owens after i said that someone sounded testy...

IlliniSpaceMan: i have testy-cals...

jim is def. on drugs!!!

IT'S CHRISTMAS!!!

Fri, 26 Dec 2003 05:52:10 GMT

well..by the time i get done writing this, it will probably be the day after Christmas, but whatever. i hope everyone got what they wanted this year, i got more than what i asked for anyways. i told my parents not to get me very much, since they are footing the bill for college and all, but they did anyhow. from my dads side i got some money and some gift cards. my moms side gave me some john deere hats, even though they are all IH people (IH means international harvester, that might not help some of you city people though). i can prob sell these hats for 10 times what they're worth, thats what is awesome. i also got a big check from my moms parents, that was nice. my parents went all out, wow. they got me a gift card as well, and its one of those simon ones that can be used anywhere visa is accepted. those are realllllly nice!!! i also got the Pirates of the Caribbean dvd, i'm soooo excited. then, i opened up a clock/alarm/radio/soother from the sharper image. it plays 20 different soothers, including thunderstorm, ebb tide and surfs up, which are my favorites. as if that wasn't enough...there was a nice wad of bills tied with a bow on the tree... i made out like a bandit this year!!! i'm exchanging gifts with bob tomorrow, i'm a bit nervous. i hope he likes everything....ahhhh..i'm going to freak out!! in other news, my cousin johnny and i were at our worst again tonight. i luv him dearly, but we are constantly at each others throats..not in a bad way mind you, in a jesting way. he tells me that i take too long in the food line, i tell him that he needs lessons from my other cousin on how to dress and be attractive...and the insults go on and on. of course..after all this he sits by me at the table and of course the picture has him trying to make weird faces behind me...all out of love i tell you. but hey!!! jim owens is online, so i must go converse with him, bye!

wrapping

Thu, 25 Dec 2003 07:19:18 GMT

well kizz-ids...i'm wrapping some gifts tonight..yes...on christmas eve, well, now on christmas day i guess. my grandma, mom and i are serious wrappers. we have competitions every year to see who has the best wrapped gifts. we come up with all the unique bows, most of the time we make our own. we have to have the best and shiniest paper and the awesome ribbon. its quite an event, and most of the time i dont want to even unwrap them. i just got done wrapping bob's gifts...awwww...and i guess i should probably go to bed..big day tomorrow with my mom's side of the family...they're some crazy kids. my dads side was tonight, well...last night rather, and it was pretty uneventful. have a merry christmas everybody!!!

GO ILLINI

Wed, 24 Dec 2003 06:24:35 GMT

ok...so we won the braggin rights tonight..but what about them free throws??? you'd think that after this many games we'd spend a bit of practice time on them. oh well. GREAT JOB B.R!!!! you are playing AWESOME!!! i taught him everything he knows...(in calc :\ anyways...woke up this morning and decided to get all cute b4 going to a movie with my bff and my bf. got to go over to wille house tonight...that excited me beyond all reason!!! beth and i were going through pat withdraw. i really enjoy going over to their house and watching bob and pat wrestle...it makes me wish that i had some siblings. they were just really fun to watch. the best has got to be when bob picks pat up so he can dunk his mini basketball in a basketball hoop they have downstairs. i wish i could do that. matt ofcourse acted like he was going to put his arm around me..that def. makes me laugh like crazy!! his dad and i got to talk about how awesome we both think Bush is, and i looked up steve's number for mr. wille so he can send him some "interesting political readings". steve will kill me when he finds out...oh well...merry christmas steve!! mrs. wille was cute as always... i don't think she's ever in a bad mood. mike was working ofcourse, that "kid" as shauna's mom called him, needs to take a break. bob was being awesome tonight...props to him for that!!! he really is a good boyfriend, even though i dont always appreciate him like i should. he takes care of me...which, for those of you that know me, is a hard job. well..i didn't realize that today was the day b4 christmas eve, well, i guess today is christmas eve, but you know what i mean. i have one of my christmas get-togethers tonight!!! woooho!! i will have 4 of my younger cousins begging for jodi, amanda and, annie's attention (yes, annie refers to me." actually, the only people who dont call me annie are my friends and my parents, and everyonce in awhile they do it accindently. i read some more of the silmarillion tonight in front of the fire place...i'm really starting to like it in that room that nobody ever goes in. in fact, my parents are going to change the name to the "room that nobody ever goes in EXCEPT anna". well kizzids...i'm getting cold, so its time to go turn my electric blanket and snuggle into bed with my stuffed animals...(yes..i have stuffed animals ok... if you have a problem with that you can kiss my g-hetto booty). have a great christmas eve everybody!!

hey guys!!

Tue, 23 Dec 2003 05:40:26 GMT

well...i'm writing tonight from beautiful metamora, at my best friend beth marchal's house! i went christmas shopping with my dad today for my mom, b/c he always waits until the last minute. the day was rather eventful, even b4 i met up with beth. so, this was supposed to be the game plan. my dad was going to take my car in to the tire shop to get new tires put on it, but he was going to take my mom to the outreach center first (which is a place in downtown peoria where she feeds the homeless). then, he was going to drop the car off and i was going to pick him up in our other car. then i was supposed to help him shop. well..here's how it actually worked out. my parents wake me up at 8 b/c they thought that dad would drop the car off right after he dropped my mom off at 9. after i was up, he decided that he could do some other stuff b4 he took the car in, so i really didnt have to be up till around 10. great. so i decided to go running with recha instead of trying to go back to bed, hence my 2 hour nap tonight. so, i get up and get ready to go, then, my dad calls my cell phone, asking if i can leave right away b/c he locked the keys in the car. lukily i was already ready to go, so i left. i get into peoria, give him the keys, and we drop off his car, and jump in mine to go shopping. now for the next set of problems, the first 2 stores that he had planned on going to for my mom weren't there, they had just decided to move. so then we hunted those stores down and found some of the stuff she wanted. we went to barnes and noble, but were running late, and he told me to find a book for mom while he got something for her from best buy. he said the book was titles "vegetable cookbook" so i asked the lady at the help desk and she said they didnt have any more of them. so my dad was mad about that. we were running late to pick up mom, so we hurried back downtown and picked her up. on our way back to pick up dads car, we got rear ended. what an awesome day it has been so far!! but wait, theres more!! so in the car, my mom says something about this cookbook she wanted from barnes and noble, but she said that it was right inside the door and that its called "vegetarian cooking". um...duh dad, i saw that one, and it was still there. i had seen it in the store and was like..hm...was that what he meant??? but i figured that what he had written down was right and that they didnt have any more of them. so after i dropped my parents off at the car i braved the traffic back to barnes and noble to pick up the book for my dad. how nice am i??? after all that i met beth and her sister at b and n (barnes and noble) and then we ran into joe radosevich!!! wow...he looked different...i gave him props for the hair! anyways..then i went to eat b/c it was 3 and i hadn't eaten anything all day, i felt like i wanted to eat my hand. anyways, mike wille called me while we were getting food, and i asked him if he wanted to go to The Return of the King tomorrow with beth and i, and he said yea, then i asked him if bob wanted to go (since mike and bob are brothers for those of you who dont know) so then bob gets on the phone and is like...why dont you just call and ask me instead of asking my brother??? well bob, duh, i had to ask him a question about something else anyhow, dont worry hunny, i really dont like your family more than you. while we were ordering, some old black guy who was prob, like, 40, asked beth and kathy if they were sisters, and then asked which one of them was older, then started hitting on beth. beth...that one was allllll yours. she told him she went to the university of notre dame, and he started talking about all the places over there he knows and about football. i just turned around and started dying laughing...it was frickin hilarious. finally, he asked her for her phone number, later she tried to tell me that she gave him mine, and i thought i was going to strangle her. she wanted me to mention that, so i did. after all this we came back to the marchal household. her parents both were so excited to see me and gave me hugs, i felt soooo loved, it was precious. i love it how i miss my friends parents more than i miss my own sometimes. maybe its b/c i know i'll always see mine, but i wont see my friends??? anyways, we decided to rollerblade to the movie store and rent pirates of the caribbean, b/c beth had never seen it. so yes, we went rollerblading in the dark in the rain!!! we are such rebels. i feel asleep during the movie at around 8 and slept till 10, it was soooooo awesome. now i am here at the computer writing about my kick ace day. tomorrow i think we are seeing The Return of the King at 11:30... in the morning. why are we going so early you might ask? well, mike has to work from 4 to 10, and since the movie is 3 and 1/2 hours, thats about the only time we could make it. i believe that bob and matt are going too, i'm excited, i haven't really seen bob yet since we have been back. matt said that we should go out for brunch, but that means we have to get up earlier, so we scratched that and decided that we should def. have lunch intead. beth and i just had an awesome idea!!!! we are going to steal pat wille and take him to petsmart!!! yes... field trip with pat!!!! we are toooo excited, yes mike..thats too with 4 o's. i got to talk to cathy today,how much fun is that! we decided that for new years eve, we are all gonna rent 2 adjoined hotel rooms in chi-town. wouldn't that be so much fun???? and with as many people as would go, it wouldnt be that expensive per person! isnt that awesome!! cathy, we are too cool. well..i believe i have dragged on long enough for one journal entry, goodnight everyone!!!!

bored

Mon, 22 Dec 2003 06:13:48 GMT

well guys, as the title states i am a bit bored. i was so bored that i decided that i should cook myself a steak and some mushrooms sauteed in sherry. yummmmm it was nice to have that after newmans food. after that i settled down in the living room (the room my family calls "the room that nobody ever goes in") with some ice cream and The Silmarillion. for those of you who are not die hard LOTR fans(shame on you if you're not) the Silmarillion is a book by Tolkien and his son about the history of the LOTR world. its quite extensive, as Tolkien was a perfectionist when it came to his made-up world, and its beginnings are thoroughly documented. my mother(who is ofcourse a LOTR fan, b/c what cool person isnt?) has tried reading it several times but gets so confused by its hundreds of character that she has never made it all the way through. bear in mind that this is the woman who has read The Bible a few times all the way through. anyways..i made it through 100 pages and decided to call it a night, out of 350 pages i didnt think that was too bad. i talked to my best friend from high school today, she was quite excited to plan the rest of my life for me, j/k beth. well... she planned the next 2 days for me at least, j/k again beth. after reading this she will yell at me and say that she didnt, then admit she did, then say that now everyone who reads this will think she is crazy. we came up with the idea that maybe bob and mike would go with us to see LOTR on tuesday, and then we decided that mike will have to work and there is probably no way i will ever get bob to go see it with me, so we'll make it into a date just for beth and i. Titanic was on tv tonight (yes guys, i dont have cable, so i get a grand total of about 5 stations) i forgot how retarded that movie was, and at the time we thought it was soooo good. wow. at least i got to catch the last part of alias tonight!!! yes, i love alias, michael vartan is sooooo hot, but damn, now he's married to that brit chic on the show, wtf mates, doesnt he realize that garner is gorgeous??? ok...halle, that is our new goal over break, have a body like hers....YEA RIGHT!!! i will just have to remember that Jake said i have nice curves, and tungi agreed!!! yes!!!! i am excited, someone thinks i have nice curves!!!! maybe i can get rid of some of my g-hetto booty over break, it is starting to become a bit ridiculous. i'm taking my dad shopping tomorrow for my mom. he always waits until the last minute, and we will be at the mall with everyone and his brother tomorrow. well, i guess i have a few gifts to pick up yet myself but hey, i've had finals. went running today with recha (thats my german shepherd puppy, shes soooo cute) and lets just say she has alot of character. after running all the way around the farm i was ready to come in and crash. got to see Tink today too (thats my crazy kitten) she was wired and wouldn't let me pet her b/c she wanted to play with the strings on my sweatshirt. then she tried to eat my sweatshirt, and i just wasn't feelin that. my dad says she needs kitty downers, i just say she has spirit, and bob would probably say that she wanted to eat his hand. well, you have to realize she gets jealous when someone else demands my attention, so bob, if you do she will probably naw your arm off, oh well, who needs an arm anyhow? (just messin) i just talked to luke, and he said he had written in his journal 3 times today out of sheer boredom. that will be me in a few days. talked to halle today about last night, it sounded like it was wise of me to leave when i did, i had enough friday night, as everyone probably now knows. i especially liked beth's convo with the group of RA's saturday morning. sadly i wasn't there for that one, as i did not get up until around 2:30. the presents are under the white tree at my house (we have two trees, the white one is upstairs for our immediate family and the colored one is downstairs and will be for the big schoon gathering which we are hosting). there is a gift for me in a long triangle shaped box, still not sure on that one, its got me stumped. i dunno what the rest of them are either, but that shape just seems weird to me, i'll probably think about what comes in that kind of box, and when i open it, the box will prob. be from something old to wrap up something that needed a box, and all that thinking will have been for nothing. oh well, what else do i have to do? i haven't called the boyfriend yet to do anything, as i told my best friend beth today. she says i'm old fashioned b/c i let the guy call me to do something. yea, oh well, thats how i was raised. my mom was one of those moms who was constantly asking me if i invited myself over and if i talked someone into doing something, and sometimes wouldn't let me do stuff b/c she thought i had. so i am now wary of asking anyone to do anything, for fear that i am being annoying. well, i guess i still call beth to do stuff, but thats because its beth, and i know i'm not annoying her b/c she LOVES ME FOREVER!!!! and her family is, wait, jim owens, are you ready for this, turbo cool. there, i cited you in my journal, dont really have a page number to go with it though, oh well. i think it is funny when everyone is on break, your aim buddy list goes down to like, 10 people being online, but hey, i'm talking to derek right now, props to him for being online!! bob was online, talked to him for alittle while, then he abruptly left and said he had to open presents, no goodbye for me! oh well. YES!!! VICTORIA JUST GOT ONLINE!!! "victoria...he's a DB....that means douchebag" yes, that will forever be one of my awesome comments that i make at 3 in the morning while studying for our chem final and i'm drugged up on caffine and am pretty much delerious. well, i'm having quite the convo with victoria right now, but i'm sure i'll write more later like luke, b/c i am bored beyond all reason.

its been awhile

Sun, 21 Dec 2003 05:25:06 GMT

well sorry guys, it's been awhile since i wrote in this thing, i was feeling the need to do nothing but sleep and party... watch out for too much partying guys...beth and i found out the hard way friday night...oooh my... i have no idea how we did not kill ourselves. on a lighter note..hey..i'm home! i am already missing everyone, especially my chi-town peeps, since i will only see you a couple times over break. i felt bad this morning b/c sooo many people came in to say goodbye to beth and i...but we were only half way coherent...sorry guys...you know that we love you!!! so i stole a pitcher from C.O.'s last night, how awesome am i!!! everyone kept yelling at me to put my coat on when we walked out b/c it was freezing and they thought i was being stupid, but they didn't realize that i had the pitcher in the coat...nerds! well jim owens, you still have my lord of the rings dvd... its ok, we have spare copies at home! i talked to steve mahieu and he wants me to come with him and mary when she drags him to see return of the king b/c he wants bob to share in his supposed misery. i tried to tell him that LOTR rocks, but he's a liberal democrat who has no idea what makes a movie ;) The Return of the King was truly awesome, i was a bit mad that they skipped over some major parts, but i suppose they have to in order to keep the movies from being 12 hours long( i would ofcourse don't think that is too long, but i am a nerd). I took jake lawhead on a little walk today to keep him out of our room while bryan was in there b/c beth has this thing about her brother knowing that she is sort of seeing one of his friends. we went down to see jim in the study lounge. he was def. passed out on the couch with a pillow, blanket and bear. when beth and i came down to see him again later we both agreed that he was about the cutest person ever. the funniest thing was when i sat down next to him on the couch and started sratching his back..he put his head and his hand on my leg...and then realized what he was doing and was like...oh..sorry about that..and went back to his pillow. beth and i both tried not to laugh our heads off. props to the guys for the book you got jim about the LOTR weapons. its good (b/c its LOTR) and also b/c its fighting stuff..woooo. i'm thinking about driving to metamora early tomorrow morning to surprise my best friend, i was thinking about going early enough to wake her up..hehe. of course this will mean that i have to miss the Geier Christmas (for those of you who don't know..that is my big fat german family..just like the movie..only german..seriously) i dont even know half of them anyways..i'm always meeting new cousins when i go to that, or else i find out that one of the guys dating my friend is related to me..that was weird. he shows up at the Geier Christmas last year and i was like...umm...are you lost?? anyways...i'm pretty tired, esp. b/c of last night (go figure, beth, we are retarded..i mean... 12!!! holy smokes!!!) so i am going to pass out in my awesome air bed and turn my electric blanket on b/c i am frozen... but hopefully i will see some of you guys later!!!

AAAHHHH

Thu, 18 Dec 2003 19:57:48 GMT

ok guys..i had a major crisis!!! josh's brother couldn't go to The Return of the King, so i was FREAKING OUT!!! but wait... bryan hallengren is awesome and said that he would go!!! YEAAAAHHH!!!! i'm saved!!!